Going, going, BACK BACK to WORK!?!?! HUh!

DUn, Dun , DUN!! (enter scary/DUN DUN DUN! Music)

My title just went from "stay-at-home mommy" to "Working mommy"

It's bittersweet. IF it wasn't for this internship, I wouldn't be returning to quickly. 

But it turns out that I gotta do what I gotta do!

Theres no way around it.  Upon completing these hours, I will officially be a Substance Abuse counselor.

But that means, that I have to leave Frankie fora few hours every day and no, I'm NOT happy.

Is he drinking out of a bottle yet? The answer it NO!!

Is he drinking out of a cup?  The answer is NO!! Well... it depends what you condsider "drinking our of a cup" means.  If it means that he take a swig of his cup and then lets the water drip out of his mouth, then NO! he's not!

So what am I going to do?

Pump, and pray for the best.

It's only going to be for 4-5 hours max, so I can feed before I leave, pump and have a stash ready. The good thing is that he's on solids now so he's not completly, 100% dependent on me for food.

If worse comes to worse then he'll just have to learn how to take bottle once in a while.

It's very frustrating because I didn't plan this out.  I should've just given him a bottle day 1! But I didn't!   I listened to the doctors and nurses and the lactation consultants instead of my own mother!  and yes, she said, "I told you so!" 
*sigh

I'm kinda freaking out a little.

It's one of those, scary moments in your life when it's like life changing.  Almost like the first day of school.  YOu don't know who your teachers are or who you're going to sit by in class. You don't want to sit next to the smelly kid or the bad kid cause then you'll get in trouble and then you don't want to be off with someone you don't know too well.

Thats where I'm at right now,  I don't know if I'm going to work with the smelly kid or the bad boy/girl. 

i'll live though. I mean, I get through everything else right? I manage to pull through some way some how I'll survive these next months.

Frankie will need to detach himself a little from me and he's going to learn that when mommy says, "Drink out of this cup please" I mean business.

I don't want to leave my baby though :( Seriously sad!

I'm going to miss funny stuff like this.

Wishing I didn't have to, Mayra