But, guess what, it got better. I was able to have both my career and my family life. It wasn't easy, but I managed.
Then, my heartbroke again when had to take him to an actual daycare. When I first started working, he was with a babysitter. She was sweet as can be! She was the best babysitter on the planet. She would cook for Frankie and she would give him a bath and let him get muddy. She would put him down for naps and she would play with him. Absolutely amazing! Then, her sister began watching him. She also was a wonderful babysitter. The two sisters were just the best ever!
However, when my job moved us to Downtown, my commute would be longer and therefore, I would be leaving him a lot earlier and for a longer period of time. She no longer could take care of him.
I had to enroll Frankie in a day care center. I was very nervous about this. Would he be okay with other children? Would he adjust well? What about the bottle issue?
To make a long story short, Frankie adjusted well and he has been happy happy happy at his "school" 2 years later, he is in the big boy classroom, has made friends and they even helped with potty training.
So..... now.........
There is a new story to tell........
I'm a Stay At Home Mom now!
Making this decision was not easy. I prayed a lot about it. I asked questions. Many questions. I outweighed my options. I consulted my parent coach. And ultimately, this was the best option. dedicating time to my children and being there was more important then commuting back and forth, being stuck in traffic, being tired, grumpy and without energy. Don't get me wrong, I LOVED my job!! NO, really, I LOVED My job. But my children and family come first. I know that there is a reason behind every decision that is made and we're going to be okay. I have faith in that!
As for making the transition, It's been hard. I have cried, And my parent coach said that It will be difficult because its like you're going through a loss in your life. There will be a grieving period. I cried when I resigned. I cried when I went through my office things and cried when I drove off. My supervisor once said (and I'm paraphrasing) "You are not this job! There is more to you then this job title. " If you're reading this. You have been a major inspiration in my life and I really look up to you. When I started this job, I never imagined all the new people I would come across. Everyone from my clients to my coworkers. I made amazing connections with people and you are one of them. To my Saturday crew: You made my Saturdays brighter. I will miss our coffee and donut breaks. I'll miss the singing and dancing. I will miss the laughs! OMG! THE LAUGHS!
This is a new chapter in my life and yes, it will be difficult. but I want to experience this and take it all in. Even if it means that there will be a struggle. I may even further my education. What I do know is that I want to set an example to my boys. I want to teach them and show them that in life, there are set backs. You will fall down, many times. But, we come back fighting. This isn't a setback, at all. It's a time of reflection. It's time for playdates, mommy and me classes, park dates, picnics, reading, learning, playing, laughing, It's time to make memories
