Wednesday, December 31, 2014
Sunday, December 28, 2014
Jacob Dylan Molina
I haven't blogged in a while. Perhaps it's cause I now have a newborn and a toddler.
There's just so much more that I can say, but it's very late and I'm tired. 4 weeks have flown by. I'm trying so hard to love in the moment. I don't want to miss anything . I want to stare into his eyes and just push pause because it really does zoom by. I don't want to think about anything else right now but my family. I want to just live in this moment forever. 
Tomorrow, our tiny human will be 4 weeks old! I can't believe that he's 1 month old already. It seems like only yesterday my water broke during Thanksgiving dinner.
My water didn't break with Frankie so I didn't know what that felt like. I had to sit down and wait just to make sure that I wasn't just peeing (I know, it sounds horrible)
So after making an assessment I left dinner and came home to pick up my hospital bag. Joe was working that night so I had to call him at work. Jake wasnt supposed to be born until December 3rd but he was ready before.
This is before heading to the hospital. 
We made it to the hospital and I was examined. I was truly in labor but because I had just indulged in a yummy dinner, I had to wait until Friday morning to have Jacob.
I was incredibly uncomfortable all night long. I was given meds to stop contractions and couldn't really move around. I didn't get much sleep and kept counting the hours until 7:30 (that's when my c-section was schduled). If my water wouldn't have broken and If I would've started contracting I think I would've labored at home. Unfortunately nothing goes as planned and this is no exception.
And so 7:30 am came around and I was prepped for surgery. This entire experience made me anxious. Even as I type this I'm getting a little anxious. Although I had a c-sec with Frankie no two births are alike. I think that I was anxious because I had just spent the entire night in a hospital bed, without being able to move, much less sleep and on top of that, I was on medication. All I wanted was to hold Jake in my arms.
And that's what I focused on while I was in the OR. I held on to Joes hand and looked into his reassuring eyes. He didn't have to say a word; I knew exactly what those eyes were telling me.
And suddenly, he was here! 7 lbs 2 oz 19 1/2 inches long. Just a little bigger than Frankie. He was perfect!
My heart grew once again and I fell in love with Jacob. He's truly a blessing!
He's a sweet baby. My sister and I say that Jacob wants to be a baby. By that we mean that he loves to be held,swaddled and loves to cuddle. Frankie was the complete opposite. Frankie didn't like to be treated like a baby. Frank has always marched to the beat of his own drum and that is a quality that I have grown to love about him.
As Jacob continues to grow everyday, I learn new things about him. So far I've learned that he doesn't like to be bothered. If it's time to eat, then he should eat. He doesn't like his diaper changed because he doesn't like to be cold. He loves baths, but only when the water is constantly falling on him. I think he's going to like showers. He likes his pacifier. Here's the thing about the pacifier. I initially didn't want to give him a paci because I'm breastfeeding. I've read and was told by every lactation consultant that Pacifiers cause nipple confusion. Let me tell you, he's not confused at all! Thankfully, he's latching on well and breastfeeding is going well! And ... Sue me... He also takes a bottle. (I'll elaborate on the breastfeeding in another post)
Tuesday, November 18, 2014
37 weeks and .....
TIRED!
I've been tired! Last night I was truly uncomfortable! It felt like very time I moved Jacob kicked and moved his feet and elbows around. My lower back is killing me and I have very low energy.
Just yesterday I was out and about doing this and that. Well I think I over did it and now I'm paying for it today.
Joe even said, "you need to sit down somewhere and just relax!" He's right. But even as I type this, I close my eyes and my mind automatically races to the never ending TO-Do list!
Clean Franks room
Finish the laundry
Make dinner
Clean the bathroom
Hospital bag prep
Wash Jaocbs going home outfit
Eat something ... Tacos... Mmm
.......
This is what is referred to as nesting. My body is lacking the energy behind it though. It comes in spurts.
I just need a good nap I think and then I'll be good.
I know that there was a lot more that I wanted to say, but I just can't remember right now. It will come to me. Maybe in a dream or once I wake from my nap. BTW this is what 37! Weeks looks like :
And
Happy Tuesday!
Sunday, November 16, 2014
Tuesday, November 11, 2014
Monday, November 10, 2014
36 week update and other concerns
36 weeks and counting!!! As expected,
Jacob has continued to grow every week! If you follow me regularly on Instagram and Facebook, you'll find that belly has now taken an egg shape.
I had some discomfort this week which landed me in urgent care. Maybe I'll elaborate on it later on. I'm kind of embarrassed about it and I'm not ready to discuss it with anyone. I'm just happy to be healthy and most importantly, Jacob is doing well.
Aside from the growing belly and discomfort, I have really began to think about my birthing plan. I hadn't really thought about it too much. Since my birthing plan went way different last time. I met with a parent coach from the hospital I'll be delivering at and i received great information that I later on researched.
For starters, I wasn't able to take advantage of the "Golden Hour" too much with Frankie because I had a c-section. Now, I learned that I'm still able to establish skin- to-skin contact right after baby is born. It may not be totally immediate because things don't always go as planned. She, however reassured me that in the event that I'm not available for any reason, dad can begin skin-to-skin contact too.
Why is this important to me?
Well let me explain. Baby is already used to listening to my every word, heartbeat and is already beginning to establish an attachment to you since birth. Imagine being ripped away from your security/ lifeline and suddenly, you're alone in this big, scary world. Being placed on moms chest immediately after birth will not only ease the stress of birth it will also create a sense if security and research says help the breastfeeding process. So does that mean I'm planning to breastfeed? Yes, I am.
My concern is not being able to obtain a good latch. This was the hardest part of breastfeeding for me the first time around. I did struggle. It wasn't easy for me. I cried, I was in pain and I felt like I didn't have much support from lactation consultants. I kept hearing everything I wasn't doing right and felt insecure about what I was going.
Luckily, my family was very supportive and I was able to keep going. I am proud to say that I breastfed Frankie for one year!
Naturally, I want to also breastfeed Jacob and I want to create the same bond I did with Frankie. I want to be able to make this a memorable experience for me and well as for Joe. This is our last child and I want to look back and say yes, we tried this and we tried our best at that and just have a memorable experience bringing our son into the world.
We are well aware that things don't always go as planned, but at least we're going in with a plan.
Now that I'm on Maternity leave I've also began to gather things for my hospital bag. So far I purchased a gown, nursing bras and we have Jacob's going home outfit. I haven't packed everything yet. I still have time (fingers crossed)
There is still so much to be done. Last night I had a dream that I hadn't washed any of Jacobs clothes and I was getting overwhelmed. So that's on my To-Do List as well.
December 3rd is the day, unless I go into labor before. I don't think I will though. Until then, there's still lots to be done. Naps included of course!!
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